Shot Day (patreon post)

Hi wordpress community, I made a public post on my Patreon page and wanted to also share here! It’s about …

Gender Euphoria

Soaking topless in the mineral hot tub was all this boy needed to feel refreshed 🥰… a lot of trans …

A Poem for Gender Rebels

This is for the softBois who unapologetically center themselves,Boys constantly questioning why,Men who invest more in accountabilityThan protecting masculinity This …

Dear Nyla (a poem)

Dear Nyla, I wish it wasn’t true I wish it wasn’t you Wish there was something more we could do …

Published in ERATO!

I am very excited to share that an excerpt of the novel I am working on is published in ERATO, …

Living As Nomads Abroad

The US government has issued an advisory for all Americans abroad to return or shelter in place. We are in …

Passing As Male

It has been over four months since I stopped taking testosterone. At times I find myself hyperaware of it. It …

So Many Changes

It has been so long since I blogged regularly. Lots has changed recently. Here’s a few updates… I stopped taking …

Everything In Moderation

There’s a saying I like that goes everything in moderation, including moderation. The saying reminds me not to worry too …

So Far So Good On the New T

It has been one month since trying the new testosterone. So far, I haven’t noticed any negative emotional changes. I …

What Happened To the Girl (a poem)

Denial is a girl in the dark Longing for the boy/ they Are hiding from the mirror / Denial is …

First Time Trying New Testosterone & IM Injection

A little while back I was worrying about what will happen when I run out of my supply of testosterone. …

It’s About More Than Abortion

A lot of people are talking about abortion being women’s rights and reproductive rights for people who aren’t women. Not …

Why Is Society Complacent When Trans Women Are Murdered?

Muhlaysia Booker, was shot and killed over the weekend. She survived a brutal jumping (the attack video went viral) weeks …

3 Simple Ways To Use Masculine Privilege For Good

Most societies in the world are patriarchal where men are given more power. It’s a fact that manifests itself in …

Different Types of Testosterone

In my last post I mentioned the half life of the testosterone I take is 8 days. And a few …

Testosterone & Mood Stability

It’s kinda hard to believe I’ve given myself 70 shots. Before almost every shot I still have a nervous hesitation. …

I Love My Titties

My story doesn’t look like the typical narrative in the mainstream for people transitioning. I don’t need surgery. I was …

Resolution

My partner encouraged me to go into the pharmacy and bring my testosterone. We went together and after three failed …

1 Year On Testosterone & Transition Timeline

Success in transitioning isn’t measured by the notion of passing. It is measured in peace of mind. It has been …

Always On the Go!

Counting my blessings after another day. Mindful gratitude, being thankful for all that is and is yet to come, has …

Brother Ma’am

People see me based off who they want me to be. What I mean is someone might look at me …

Airport TSA Experience as a Non-Binary Trans Person

“Are you a man or woman?” The TSA agent asked me with a puzzled look. My scan showed the groin …

“Control” (a Poem)

I take a dose Twice a day In a world Where I’m scared Someone would Take my life away I …

If I Knew Then & Good News!

When I didn’t understand my identity and felt nothing but angst and shame I never thought I would be marching …

“What’s the Secret?” Guitar Freestyle Video

Having fun with an acoustic freestyle. This was actually a week ago, on Mother’s Day. It was a good day …

Binary Public Bathrooms

I usually still go to the Women’s room if there is only the two options. Yesterday, the Women’s room was …

Watching “Venus Boyz” Again

The first time I saw this documentary film by Gabriel Baur was around 2008 on the LOGO network I think. …

3 Months on T

Here is a list of changes I have noticed: The first change I noticed was in my skin, it is …

Call Me Kei

It happened at the clinic again. This time I was waiting to meet with my new medical social worker for …

Pretty Boy Realness

One day as a kid, I remember hearing the term “pretty boy” used. It was part compliment directed to the …

Let’s Talk About Sex

We went to a performance Monday night after my therapy appointment. We had a lot of fun and it was …

Trying to Make Things Right

When first starting hormone therapy, I wasn’t met with the reaction I idealized in my mind for all the years …

The Awkward Moment That Never Came

Picture this: two dudes with the same car chumming it up over their beloved vehicles while pumping gas. Only one …

Birth/Legal Name vs Chosen Name

I had a dream recently someone called me by my birth name at an open mic. I couldn’t get up …

Why SUAVE?

Acronym aside, I chose the word suave because it has been used as a positive description for masculinity. But it …

Change Can Be Scary

Change can bring up fear. Even if the fears are rational, the emotion of fear can cause irrationality. But change …

Don’t Believe the Hype: My Transgender Perspective on “Nonbinary”

The term nonbinary has become more used in our culture. California has added it as a third gender option. Yes, …

There Will Be Blood

So far none of my shots have bled more than a droplet. It’s an injection, so pressure should be applied …

I Always Felt Different…

(Photo of me as a kid taken by my brother) Coming back to this topic after my earlier post where …

Two Spirit- An Indigenous Recognition

(Photo by GWS of me in Belize last year) I recently had the good fortune to be present for a …

“You’re not special/No one cares…”: Reframing Negative Self Talk

In moderation, this particular negative self talk can actually alleviate my anxiety. No, I’m not a special case being nonbinary, …

Note to My Past Selves

In the spirit of this new moon in Aquarius and lunar new year (Chinese year of the dog), this note …

Sunday Is T day & How I Got Here

(Photo I took of myself today) I was anxious before this injection because last week it hurt pretty bad for …

Old Photos & Healing Wounds

(Photo I took of a burning photo) Content Warning: sexual trauma| Cleaning out some things the other day, I found …

A Glimpse Into the Future

(Throwback B&W photo of me in Nov 2013, taken by G or me) I’ve scoured forums and blogs looking for …